IT's been along time since I have written.
There's a reason for this.
I am in pain.
I had an accident on February 5th 2013, and it's been along time 'healing'. I have been improving, and getting my independence back slowly but surely. However I have had to prioritise my activity, to the things that NEED to be done. Anything that constitutes repetitive movement, or refined fine motor control has aggravated my pain in my dominant arm/hand and the adjoined neck and shoulder. think about most of the day to day activities around the house, and you'll quickly realise that most of them are exactly that...
9 days ago I went to see a musculo-skeletal specialist. Apparently I have all the hallmarks of a prolapsed C6. In layman's terms: the nerve that sits here is permanently squished between two vertebrae. Ouch.
This coming Tuesday I'll be having an MRI to confirm the diagnosis. Once confirmed, I'll be scheduled for surgery to put a separator between the vertebrae to relieve the pressure. The specialist tells me that most people recover very quickly, with the pain gone almost immediately.
I am terrified of the MRI, as I am very claustrophobic. Surgery always has elements of risk, and that thought is not without fear in itself.
I am mostly thinking about all those things I have not been doing for the last 6+ months, that I will be able to contemplate doing again... sleeping, sewing, blogging, gardening, active lifestyle...
Yeah. I'm feeling the fear. I will do it anyway.
